Is it a Sweet 16?

Perhaps you have seen this meme floating around

There is one line in there - "But, my son is a promise that I will have a friend forever!" that makes me scream - "LIE!!!"

Today, my firstborn turns 16. He used to love me and I thought we were going to have a friendship that would last past the parent/child stage ... here are some pictures from right before he started to pull away

I love this boy and I thought he loved me. Yes, I am his mom, but we enjoyed being together and going places and living life together. We liked the same tv shows (SpongeBob, Danny Phantom, Ben10, Jimmy Neutron, Big Time Rush, Drake and Josh, iCarly, Zoey101, Victorious, Jessie, Dog with a Blog, Liv & Maddie, etc ... those were just the "kiddie" shows as we also watched Lost together after it was off the air because my mom was very confused by the ending so at that point i was finally interested in the show).

At one time he did genuinely enjoy being home educated as well. When he wanted to play a sport, I would go to all the practices and games. When he wanted to go to the skatepark, I went and read a book while he skateboarded. When I was interested in something he knew he would have to come along as we were always together.

We also used to spend the weekends with our Torah Community and another family with an only child we met through this community. We had service and oneg and afterwards would either hang out playing Wii and having fondue or we would go skating or just play board/card games with this other family.

Then I had to work full time and he had to spend weekends with his dad (see previous post) and it seemed he had a place to escape to if he got tired of any supposed rules at our new home with a new man in our lives.

He was even blessed with a little brother after many years of wanting one and still it was not enough to keep his heart close to our home.

After seeing photos from the birthday party his other family threw him yesterday, I just felt like he totally shows how much he is proud to be with them. It has made me cry several times today and it is not even noon yet. I feel like it is no big deal that i am his mom.

Well I need to get going for my "token" time with him...we were going to actually do something fun (indoor race track, darts, billiards, bowling) but since one of his friends is not able to come along now, he just wants me to take him for food and oh yeah clothes for school (what part of stay at home mom means I'm made of money???) (not to mention you are breaking my heart choosing public school </3 )  and then frozen custard and then he wants to stop by our house just to get a pair of contacts for next month. (Mom aka "I need something")
Happy Birthday to Noah & "happy" mom day to me
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