So earlier today while DS was in his gymnastics class, I was reading a book...something I like to do as you can tell by my reading list.
And then the following words came to mind:
You are directing my paths, having had it all planned out. I don't understand why You would have me walking this burdensome, aching path of longing for more children, to see me endure these tearful years, when all You have to do is make it all better. Please Lord Jesus do so according to Your will regarding children and do it all to Your glory! Please dear Jesus.
Then as I read further along in my book I ran across an explaination of prayer and how the Lord uses it as a way for us to come into synch with HIS plans. So I thought the following:
You planned for me to utter these words. There must be some reason....
Then after arriving home I read a weblog and the lady described being sexually active at the age of 14...and here I thought having done so at the age of 17 was too early...I do not condone my behavior as a teen. I was in a relationship with a young man and he and I pledge our loved via exchanging vows...I felt terrible for the longest time that since 4 years later I did marry my DH that I was somehow violating those vows made...but that relationship was ended by his parents so I was released of that. But I digress....back to now....
So I was thinking ya know if the Lord could bless her with 5 pregnancies (one did end in m/c) but she now has 4 healthy children...then surely HE could do the same for me. That it wasn't because of the sin I was forgiven of as to why HE has only given me one healthy child and a huge desire to have more.
And this is not the only gal I know of that also was sexually active as a teen but now as a saved and born again adult has 3+ children. So again if HE can do it for them, why not for me? I know HE is able.
According to YOUR Will let it be
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